第32部分(第3/9 頁)

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he　was　related　to　herself。　For　what　he　was；　beyond　her；　she　had

no　care。　She　did　not　care　for　what　he　represented　in　himself。　It

is　true；　he　did　not　know　himself　what　he　represented。　But

whatever　it　was　she　did　not　really　honour　it。　She　did　no　service

to　his　work　as　a　lace…designer；　nor　to　himself　as　bread…winner。

Because　he　went　down　to　the　office　and　worked　every

day……that　entitled　him　to　no　respect　or　regard　from　her；　he

knew。　Rather　she　despised　him　for　it。　And　he　almost　loved　her

for　this；　though　at　first　it　maddened　him　like　an　insult。

What　was　much　deeper；　she　soon　came　to　bat　his　deepest

feelings。　What　he　thought　about　life　and　about　society　and

mankind　did　not　matter　very　much　to　her：　he　was　right　enough　to

be　insignificant。　This　was　again　galling　to　him。　She　would　judge

beyond　him　on　these　things。　But　at　length　he　came　to　accept　her

judgments；　discovering　them　as　if　they　were　his　own。　It　was　not

here　the　deep　trouble　lay。　The　deep　root　of　his　enmity　lay　in

the　fact　that　she　jeered　at　his　soul。　He　was　inarticulate　and

stupid　in　thought。　But　to　some　things　he　clung　passionately。　He

loved　the　Church。　If　she　tried　to　get　out　of　him；　what　he

believed；　then　they　were　both　soon　in　a　white　rage。

Did　he　believe　the　water　turned　to　wine　at　Cana？　She　would

drive　him　to　the　thing　as　a　historical　fact：　so　much

rain…w